What is BEST for me at this moment in my life? What is best FOR ME at this moment in my life? What is best for me at this moment in MY life?
The good Catholic girl in me thinks this is an incredibly self-centered, selfish question that is not worthy of consideration, let alone any type of action. But for the last year or two, this 50-something woman has been forced to think about ME. I live alone now. That changes the decision making process. That changes the back up plan. That changes my future plans.
That question: What is best for me at this moment in my life, has gone from a vague, nagging whisper to a loud, demanding shriek. I've been forced to respond, and I understand that the vague, nagging whisper has been prodding my subconscious actions for years.
What is best for me, Laura, at this moment in my life? Simplicity. Quietude. Peace.
How do I get to that simple, quiet, peaceful life? What does it look like?
I'm working on that. There are some things that I know deep in my bones to be true to what is best for me. Other things, I need time to pray and reflect on. It'll come.
Simplicity is so appealing! Quietude is such a gift. May you work your way toward and find both.
ReplyDeleteAmen to Alicia's wishes for your path ahead. May it come gently to you, and may your "ears" be in should it whisper!
ReplyDeleteIt may seem selfish, but it's not. God does expect us to take care of His tools (us), doesn't He?
He does, indeed. But America was settled by Puritans and that ethic is strong in our society.
DeleteSaved the meme for my 'favorites' virtual folder. I've been weeding out 'stuff' and people from my life in search of Quietude (new word to me) and wish for you success in your journey.
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